Hi Katie, I feel for your pain. I am going through the same thing. Im very frustated with the Doctors too. I also go through spurts of crying spells and sadness. I get very down and discouraged when I see other women my age living an acvtive lifestyle because it just reminds me that my body has betrayed me. People say get pro-active. Its hard when your in pain all the time. It makes you very low energy. I try to put a smile on my face day for my family. But I have days inside that I just want to drop to my knees. I wish I had more people to talk to in the flesh. I love being around people. I want to see other people just like me, maybe it would be more hopeful. Hang in there Katie.