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Join Date: May 2013
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Join Date: May 2013
Posts: 5
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Hi all and to mother asked about lifting daughter
Trying to copy and paste text I spent 2 hours on only to be logged out and couldnt get back in, hope this works.
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and to mother asked about if it was ok to pick up/hug her dau. I believe it was.
Hi all, did that because I looked briefly at 1st page and didnt see what coulldve been the thread to reply in and that is the extent it took to do me in. Please bare with any alllll of my typos, I can't afford to fix any of it. If I post enough u'll be able to read it as nornal,lol. It gets worse trust me  Especially the more i look up to see what typed cause I type like Linus played the piano,only much, much slower. Mormally this little bit I've typed takes me... well 2- 4 hours usually so I better get on with it.
Ok, reason for this as my 1st post and why the title like it is. I found this site last dec or jan, and have stopped in ...... third time I think. ramabling again...the summer of 99 my ex and girls stopped over and I met them out back and its a like patio,steep hill and the parking lot. <y oldest girl born in 91, asked me to pick her up. Ecerytime I'd see her she always ran up to me beaming and yell Hi Da Da ( not gonna bother trying to spell how it sounded, wish I could describe it better tho) , never failed to light me up/// anyhow I wasn't feeling like I could pick her up at all, let alone on that hill, but I woulda had it been on flat ground. I will go to my grave if I ever get there, wishing like one can't imagine that I would of consequences be damned. I knew she was p/o'd, so I sat down and called her to my lap. Mope, had ur chance I could see in her face.
I saw that post somewhere around noon I think and I intended to join and reply then but that thought, or memory was like a pinball bouncing around in my head for the 7 or 8 hours ( It was shortly after 7 pm and I think I was in here around 11 cst am) until I was finally able to get rid of that terrinle feeling it vreates when that happens. Not to mention having to relive the ... I don't know the right word, Regret is a biggie, but sorrow it vrings , its like well, today it dawned on me that was the last time she every did that, damn shes stubborn,lol, any strong negitive emotion u can name and it was riding on the wave the wake from the pinball each and every single time the ball bounced. I'm just glad dizzyness,nausuosness..... eeekyness has been better tgen aberage latley.
And please,please, don't feel bad or guilty at all , the only reason I shared it because ut was a glimpse of what reading a simple post can do, and had to get off, these forums are hard as alll get out for me, most sites are in fact....rambling... Anyhow, take from it what you will, but I wouldn't pass it up if I could do it over, not for a damn thing.
Boy that didn't take long for me to remeber why I had to stop joining forums, and really going to most internet sites in general. Worked onthat for 2 straight hours( 2am-4am) only to feel like .... this, only to have it log me out and now I xan't get back in. Luckily I was avle to get it back and save to notebook..... sighs deeply, oh the joy's of the interenet, wonder how long this 1's gonna last.
To Mother of girl: see, told ya, don't sweat it, this is just my life. sometimes alls it takes is a simple mouse click and it knocks my butt out, I mean, gross nasty feelings, and gets worse from there, this is about as good as it gets for me nad luckily my vision isn't to bad, cant tell if double or triple vision. That octivision is for the birds, that's when struggling to cheating to make amything out is over.
Sorry I don't include any links or whatever for stuff I mention, it's not out of laziness or disrespect, it's that every movement,click,scroll,exrta pages or amy of that just magifies it exponitialy depending type of content, color,jeeze, I doubt I could even show some1 a webpage or anything and they wouldn't get it. I am always literally one click away from that simple movement wiping me out. Thats like resting ur brain, how does one do that? ( You know that saying "I'll sleep when I die", the brain made that up. If it rests, u die).and that just that 1 tinnie winnie thing out of everyting or anything that is going on around me,seen or unseen
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