It is unlikely that anyone can give you any comprehensive advice as to your dilemma. Me ,I wish it were not so, but the opposite sex is not a part of my life now, PD takes so much away from us. I save what "on time" I have for my children and what resources for them also. I realize that this is extremely not any kind of an answer to your frustration, but it seems to me that is all that the majority of us can come up with. I am sorry that you are in such a position. I hear and can relate to your post, if that is any kind of a response. Cs