I want to have surgery. I want to book a flight and go do it.

But...I am thinking I shouldn't do it even though I want to.

I have modified my life until I am blue in the face, ahha.

But, I think physical thearpy has not been exhausted yet.

I don't know how I'll get along without having gone and done it. I really do want to do it but I have received too many negative insights on it. I think I am looking at it with too much hope. I want it to be a true great thing to do.