Now this is not just a simple matter of me obsessing and worrying about it. I am not even thinking about it--it's just simply knowing this information that keeps on automatically making me depressed. As I stated, it's not an obsession and worry that is causing the depression from this information to persist and that I can just simply move on in life from this information--it is my inability to overcome a perceived stressor (a stressor that, in this case, is something I know that will be with me for the rest of my life and is something I will never be able to escape). Since I can never escape or even cope with the fact that depression kills off the dendrites and synapses of neurons of the feel-good parts of the brain, this is the reason why the depression from knowing this information persists. No matter what I do or how I think, this information keeps on automatically making me depressed on its own.

Once my mind is caught in a hopeless depressive trap such as this, I can't escape. This is again, not because I am obsessing and worrying or telling myself I can't escape. Because if I do have control over these thoughts and feelings, then the depressive feeling from this information would not drag on for this long (I once had similar depressive experiences regarding other types of information in which once I am aware of certain information, no matter what I do or how I think, the depression from this information lasts all day everyday for 2 or more years).