Hello
Thanks to ginnie and leesa for your caring comments. I am currently seeing a pain management dr. My first appointment was for an emg. The study came back abnormal of course. I have cervical radiculopathy at c4-c6. I have not asked for narcotic pain meds and dr does not offer any. I think she is waiting for me to ask for them. I am mid fifties and this situation with my neck is hard for me to grasp. I have worked hard my whole life and now I am struggling to live with physical pain. The mental aspect is also wearing me down as I feel my life slipping away from me.
Realizing my own mortality is a real eye opener. I must sign pain contract to receive narcotic pain meds. The terms such as random drug testing and pill counts make me feel like a drug seeker. I have no problem passing drug screening yet its just one more thing to deal with. I have less energy these days as my condition seems to leave me drained. When I was younger I would hear older people talk about death as a relief, I could never understand this line of reasoning. Now I am understand their position from a different prospective. As I am typing this my arms are tired. I know there are many on this site that are far worse off than I am.

God bless you all
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