Thanks for thinking about my problems. You are not the first one to mention the effects of "long term use of benzodiazepams". What most people do not understand, or maybe believe, is that i only use them when i need to, and that is not usually more than 3 times a week, sometimes not at all for two weeks. I had only used up an Rx one time until last month. My stress loads lately have been higher than ever, from various encounters with medical providers.

I found out about the BPD Dx 2 1/2 yrs ago, tho I think more than one Psychiatrist thought about it, not believing that I had been poisoned. I have seen other people who were in the same condition as me, for the same reasons, more than twice, so i know it happens. They know it too, if they would be honest. What really gets me in hot water is that I won't take any more Psych Meds. How could I ? And I insist on these bizarre alternative treatments, like acupuncture and holosync and meditation...

Hahahaha, well, it's good to be so far advanced in my rehabilitation, and I did get the Psych. to change my Dx to PTSD. Now i'm fighting to have that BPD Dx "purged" from my files. Perhaps my health will prevail until i see the end of PTSD too! Wouldn't that put a kink in their tails!

Thanks for the gift of listening...
StormE1