I am sorry today is so bad. It is hard to pick yourself up when you are so low. Let this day pass from you. You will make new friends. I am here. I lost a friend this year too and it devistated me for months. Had to go for council. I do care, and I understand those feelings you have. Try to do one small thing just for yourself. Eat some chocolate, just try to think of something else, and not your sorrow. I am here to talk to anytime. I care, ginnie