The year I was d'xd (2001) I lost my mum (cancer) my dad (hear attack) I lost my job (because I was so tired, forgot stuff and was generally not a good employee - although the customers loved me - even if my boss didn't like the way I walked, or that I was tired a lot and forgot stuff). Then I crashed my new car - not my fault, but my six year old daughter was in the back - luckily no major injuries for either of us, but $17,000 damage to the car.

Less than two years later, my son was diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome, a routine MRI found that I had a brain aneurysm, which resulted in open brain surgery, a craniotomy, and huge steroids because I have ITP as well as MS and a very long recovery.

So, guess what? Lots of emotional stuff, lots of easy tears, lots of 'emotional lability, moods swings, tears, anger etc. You know what? I still have those feelings today, although not near as often.

I told myself to 'toughen up' and stop being such a sook. I am sure my husband did (and still does) think the same way sometimes.

Looking back, I probably had every reason to be teary - if it was one of my friends, I would dispense all kinds of advice about being kind to ourselves and not to have unreasonable expectations.

So, my advice, no one wants to be labelled as being weak, and no-one seeks to have it on their resume. It just happens, it is life and you have to accept it, deal with it, and be a better person because you DO give a d@mn - about you and the people around you.

Living with a chronic disease and coping with all of the challenges and fears that it presents is hard. Look for, and accept help, there are reasons for everything, whatever you may be feeling now, there are lifelines and help available, Don't be scared to seek it out.
Just my thoughts.