The application form is a word document on my computer. The essays will go at the end. I may prepare them in separate documents and then paste them them in, but basically, where I write is not an issue for me. Neither is the content or even the structure. ItThe issue is my fear of messing up some subtle linguistic aspect, since this whole application is about my potentials to teach the language.

I do know how to break down the task - I was taught to write essays in this way: 1. choose a structure, 2. jot down structure (outline), 3. fill in the outline (content), 4. write text from the detailed outline (composition) 5. proof-read and correct any errors.

My fear is about the last step. I am afraid of not catching every single possible error! The fear is great enough I can't seem to get past the (very high level) outlines I did last week.

I feel like my admission to the course hinges on a perfect application. I also feel like it is an exam of sorts - even the spellchecker seems like a cheat, although I know it would be stupid not to use it. At the same time, I feel I should write somewhat freely, so they can see weaknesses I have (through errors!) - areas where I might need improvement.

Well hows that for some mixed up thinking?

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Now, do I just write something, fix any obvious errors and send it, or do I spend the next 5 years laboring over a couple of paragraphs, in order not to boldly split some infinitive no man has split before?

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