Hi! I'll talk a bit about your situation. First thing, give all your guns to someone you trust and have them locked in a gun safe that you don't know the combination to. Then tell them under no circumstances to give them back until you are feeling better. Ok, when I was working for a coal mining company years ago, we had a saying-"When your up to your neck in alligators, it's hard to remember that your here to drain the swamp!" It's time to move on. The doctor you are seeing is unacceptable. Focus on finding somebody else asap. Find a practice that has a better demeanor than where you started. Compassion is out there somewhere for you. Word of mouth info from others might help point you in the right direction. It's tough and you should vent. At the very least, you should have vicodin es to start taking the edge off. Be careful with drinking though, opens up many other problems. I will get back to you with more soon. Take care, sfink