Hi Batesmom.

It sounds like you are depressed: weight gain, low self-esteme, "emotional quicksand." Seek help. I recommend a psychiatrist who is a woman.

Here's why. Since you are not yet diagnosed and have already been thought to be "a somatiform" it will help to have that MD after her name in dealing w other MD's. They won't be able to brush you off. OTOH, if you are "somatiform" you will have your problems addressed.

I think a woman is less likely to buy in to the, "it's all in her head" theory.

Unfortunately, I have traveled this path. Many of us did, especially before MRI's were invented.

I wish you help, health and happiness and a strong advocate.
ANN