Hi, this head injury thing really is hard to deal with, i have broken both shoulders, one in 7 pieces, torn ligaments in both knees, had kidney stones several times, had appendicitis, got impaled on a dirt bike handelbar which crushed femoral artery ripped open abdominal an caused hernia, 44 staples in groin, 22 staples in shoulder, crashed skiing n heard glass breaking, gues that was brain rattle, and all along banging my head like a dope. No injury has been harder to deal with than the day to day symptoms of this tbi, Ive had 6 concussions and multiple impacts. Yes I am an idiot.
Now even slight bump on head causes symptoms of dizziness, extreme fatigue, blurry vision, confusion, etc (hey I dont even have to drink to feel drunk saves money on the beck)
so what encouragement can i offer?..........we just have to face the reality that if you play, u pay.
Im not trying to be glib, just real. I feel like an old person now.
So what can I say positively? That I have a tremendous amount of empathy that I never had before, being so active and able to physically endure and excell most my life had left me without understanding of others weaknesses. Especially older folks. Now I really understand what many many people are going through in their lives. Has this helped me? Yes, this empathy makes me feel more Human, wherever I can help some one, I am more understanding.
It's kind of weird to be in excellent physical shape yet feel like an 80 yr old man, and how do you explain? Only those who have experienced the same can truly comprehend the depth of despair this syndrome can bring,,,,but maybe others with other issues have the same despair.
My motto now is that if I experience even only one beautiful thing in a day, no matter how small, I appreciate that if I was dead, I wouldn't have even enjoyed that, so I focus on that. Truth though is there are many more then one beautiful thing I experience each day. Train your mind to always focus on whatever positive thing you can. guess that's all i have so hang on to the beautiful.