Thanks Donna.
Yes I have to approach it like I'm not turning it in, it's the only way.
BTW, I just spent an hourish on the first essay. The structure and content are down. Some parts are also in prose.
However I just went back to the school site and downloaded their pre-course task. I thought it would be maybe a night's homework type thing.... something to distract me between working on bits of essay.
WRONG!
IT FREAKED ME OUT EVEN MORE!
That thing is LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG. They state specifically that the task should be done in different sittings, over a period of time. I already have early signs of my hormonal migraine parade here. There is NO WAY I could complete it in time for the June class.
I am disappointed, but at the same time relieved?
waves