Originally Posted by CRPSsongbird

today I had my worse flareup to date. I lost my job back in march from all the time i had missed from this. I was lucky and found another one about 3 weeks later....... Now I had to leave work today because of the pain. They have a very strict attendance policy. So I could very well loose this one too. I am typing one handed at the moment. I am SO sick of this. It is ruining my relationship. He used to be so supportive when we first got together. Now because there have been SOOOO many doctors vists, ER visits, everything you all know about...he seems not to care. He just doesnt understand how painful this is. He figures I shoud just "deal" with it. Well I do! I hadnt had an ER visit for 3months. And I had gone to my doctors office 1st since I have a pain contract now. He saw how bad it was, my arm was lobster red and I was actually throwing up the pain was so intense. I am crying now because I dont know what I can do. I feel like I'm a burden and also want to eave. I think I deserve better than that. Then I started thinking, who the helll would want me in this condition......My daughter always has to check is tht your hurt arm mommy? before hugging or trying to play.........This has almost RUINED everything in my life..........I just want this to stop. No one nderstands, and everyone in my life is getting tired of dealing with me. I have had a good couple of months before this but....just NO ONE understands, or even seems to try.........I so so your feeling this way too Angelina.....my heart is with you too in our pain