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Originally Posted by DiMarie
Mari,
The kind that make cookies, pies, took day trips to swim and parks.
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Originally Posted by DiMarie
Maybe make a lsit of the good points of your Mom. Does she keep a clean home, visit shut ins, give to bake sales, help you spring clean, There must be something positive?
Did she ever help you with a school event, or make a dress, buy a special dress, send birthday cards she picked out just for you...the unspoken way to communicate between mother and dauther.
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Dear Di,
You write beautifully about mothers.
My mother does all those things you mention. She was a stay at home mom until I was a teenager. Dad was away in the military. ...So half the time, we had no dad with us.
And she did pass on a sense of independence. I am grateful for that.
She is educated but had a horrible childhood that she doesn't talk about.
When her mother was dying in the hospital for two months, she did not get on a plane to go visit her and her brothers and sisters.
Well, and my mother never helped me with spring cleaning.
I moved away when I was 17.
When I was out of a job because of bipolar she and Dad sent me rent money so that I would have a place to stay. They kept sending the money even after I got some low paying jobs.
I guess I have many memories with my mother but none of them are happy ones. She was trying hard to stay sane herself -- and she mostly accomplished that.
She passed onto me a huge sense of responsility and a need to take care of people -- I've been trying to shake this since my early 20s and making some progress.
I'm sad. And I am sad that I can't explain very well what is wrong right now. I do have some happy memories from childhood -- they involve my sister and brothers.
Perhaps I am freaking out because Dad says that they might visit me on Labor Day weekend in Sept. The last time they visited me about 15 years was not so good.
I saw them at their place last summer with hubby. The visit was so bad that I decided not to go back.
You are kind to write to me in the midst of your own trials.
M.