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Originally Posted by pooh_ac
Sigh.... I find myself in a place that I have been able to avoid for several months......Some parts of my existence has never-ending turmoil. Many things that are ever so far out of my reach and ability to do change them. Some of those things my spouse and my son are also unable to change. They hear my ranting and raving on a daily basis that the unfair and unjust things of this life should not involve a young child we have raised as our own. I pray for the day that this child's unfit father will be sent forever into a unit hosted by many county and state law enforcement. Many friends and neighbors know this child has been raised for the rather the largest portion of her life (well over 90%) by my spouse and myself. He tends to take her for short periods of time, to show her off, to attempt to show what a wonderful father he is etc.
However when it comes time for food, clothing, shelter, childcare or other needs, she is left for us to take care of all of those little details.
But I digress.. the medications are no longer working, things that in the not to distant past that brought me pleasure, my place of employment seems to be pushing me to the point of resignation,even the child herself are no longer able to keep my focus on staying in the here and now. Things seem to be spiraling out of control... The father says he is picking up the child tomorrow afternoon, my spouse is gone yet again to a nearby state. I am not sure that I will be around for my dear child on the late evening of "fathers day" or my work on Monday..
Such a small and unimportant part of this world we are
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no no dear lady. You are important and your contributions to your loved ones matter greatly. That dark hole you find yourself in right now does have sides and many of us are here, hoping you will look up and see the light, will see us reaching down to help you to your feet. Hope springs eternal.
