I don't want to leave a legacy of suicide behind me that is why I am trying desperately hard to get something back but I've been like this for nearly a year now and nothing has changed, I'm not prepared to live the next 20 30 years like this because I no longer have interests and hobbies or taking care of myself never mind anybody else this medication has just wiped my brain clean, there is silence and darkness when I'm alone in my head there is no brain activity at all, theyve done everything on me including ECT and I wish I had never woken up from the anaesthetic.

Please pray for me that's all I ask, that somehow a miracle takes place and God & Jesus decide to heal me of this destruction.

Amen