Im bad my friends... It's been a while since I have troubles every day... I feel good one second, want to die the next second... I screw up my relationships with people, "friends", family....

Yes, I have talked with pdoc and we have tried different things but once again, I feel great 2 hours, and then, everything is darker again...

I really want this period of my life to get over.

I feel dizzy due to all the emotions I experience a long the day...

I feel weird... Seriously, Im worried because I think Im getting really insane... Completely crazy... I cant control myself and my life is a total mess...

How do you ask for forgiveness ? How do you ask for not a second chance but a 100th one !?