My waves...

How I wish I could hug you right now...

Im tired you know, I take my meds, I take therapy from time to time, I read books about BPD, I swear to myself, to the Gods and to the people close to me that Im going to change, that Im going to contain myself and then, I fail again... I mess up people, their days, my life... And I have to start again, but Im not sure the people around me can/want to start over again with me...

I dont know what to do anymore... Im desperated.