Sam
I did send you a PM when you first joined, to let you know about our other community at PsychCentral, where you may find a lot more info on the psychiatric medications you were given, along with ECT and also the self injury etc. You may just find it beneficial to post there as well as here (You will need to register there as well)
here is the link again
http://forums.psychcentral.com/
I do want to mention that my son had horrible reactions to SSRIs and zyprexa, but after careful and lengthy withdrawal from those meds (under doctor supervision!!) he got
much better, so please know there is hope!