Hi my name is joely I lost my mother in December 2011 and I tell you it has not gotten any easier for me...I was holding my mothers hand when she took her last breath...She was only 65 yrs old and I am still grieving horribly bad and I am now on depression meds cause i am having a very hard time just going about my day on a normal level...She was creamated and did not want any services I still have her ashes and I just don,t know what to do...When I think about even having a service I start to ball like a baby and don,t want to let her go......The hardest part I think is the fact I can,t pick up the phone and call her anymore....Mother,s day was the worst...Any help or sugesstions would be greatly apprechiated....Thanks.....