I am very sorry for your loss. Time will heal, and the grieving will be a little less each month, each year. You will remember all the good, I promise you. Right now, allow yourself to go through all the emotions you are. This is part of the process, and tears are normal, many tears are normal. My mom has been gone since 2005, and I still cry at times. Our mothers are our best friend.. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Grief council can be found if you need an ear of a professional. I did that through hospice. Be kind to yourself, and lean on your friends for support. ginnie