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Originally Posted by LostinTime987
Thanks so much for hearing me out - my friends and family are I think tired of hearing me talk about my injury & symptoms.
Nope, no antidepressants yet. I hit my forehead on a glass wall while I was looking down at my phone. No loss of consciousness. I felt lightheaded/dizzy afterwards but didn't think anything of it. The next day, I woke up with a headache and nauseas feeling the next day and before I knew it I was vomiting every ten minutes. Thought I had a stomach virus or something but to my doctor let me know that my head injury had actually been a concussion. I had insomnia, constant headaches, fatigue, ear aches, ringing in ear the first two weeks and then I was feeling a bit better so I went to go see a movie with friends- huge mistake. I totally relapsed and have had headaches again, so now I'm taking it easy.
Something I noticed two weeks after my injury was the depression that had begun to sink in. Slowly everyday I was feeling less and less of anything- no sadness, no happiness, etc. I can laugh at jokes and participate in conversations, meet with friends but I don't feel pleasure. It's very difficult for me to describe- I guess I don't have that physical feeling of warmth or anything for that matter. I feel no compassion either- it is the oddest feeling. Before my concussion, the smallest things would set me off emotionally- a scene in a movie, homeless person on the street, etc. now I feel like a zombie. I guess this could be because I hit my frontal lobe and I'm honestly just praying I feel better.
I went to see a neurologist the first week of my injury and he took it very lightly, almost in a condescending manner. He told me I'll be fine in no time and to just rest and eat properly, etc.- basically things I could easily have found out online. My doctor was worse- he brushed me off completely. He prescribed me hydrocodone/vicadin the first week of my injury for my headaches which I REALLY regret taking- I found out recently that opiate drugs are not good to take for head injuries.
I scheduled an appointment with a therapist for next week for the depression issue. I was hoping to find a neuropsychologist but they're all so busy or don't accept my insurance. I wanted to get a complete evaluation done because I'm just so stressed out (or at least as stressed out as I possibly could be given my weird apathetic state of mind).
As for nutrition, I looked at the Vitamins sticky and will be starting that regimen soon. For now I had only been taking a multivitamin Centrum pill everyday and had cut out caffeine.
Thanks again everyone for hearing me- this is the loneliest I have ever felt.
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This is completely normal following concussions. The first 3 months were the worst for me. There isn't much a Doctor can do except monitor your progress and perform cognitive, balance, and physical therapy if you need it. Your best bet for the depression symptoms is the therapist. I saw a therapist for a year following my concussion and it has improved my life for the better. He/she will help you develop strong coping skills and will provide a source for you to vent these overwhelming emotions that come with being hurt, such as the personality changes and the social isolation. My physiatrist considered antidepressants in low doses for me, but I chose to remain drug free. Time, good sleep patterns, healthy eating, and good thoughts are the best things for recovery. Its hard for others to understand that you are injured because their is not a scar or a cast. What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. Ride it out, it will be tough, but it wont last forever.