Thank you everyone. I really appreciate it. I miss feeling the highs and lows of life, enjoying music, praying to God from the depths of my soul, empathizing with people, feeling the pleasure of laughter, etc. I can't believe one wrong step of mine could cause me so much damage. I find myself crying almost every morning unable to even get out of bed...I know that's terrible and probably adds to my symptoms but it feels like I have no control anymore over myself. When I do feel something, it's always just negativity and gloom, always about myself. I just wish I could wake up from this nightmare.