schippel94,

Welcome to NeuroTalk. I am sorry to hear that you have not had anybody to take a serious interest in the health of your brain. I bet you have suffered more than 20 to 25 concussions. Your dingers that did not cause symptoms that lasted beyond a minute or so still count as concussions. Then you need to add the impact of hundreds or thousands of sub-concussive impacts. These can be as damaging as a full concussion.

All of your symptoms are classic post concussion /multiple impact syndrome. You can expect them to continue and to get worse.

If you intend on continuing in contact sports, I am going to be VERY BLUNT. I have two serious recommendations for you to consider.
First, Look into the Sports Legacy Institute www.sportslegacy.org It is the research organization that hockey and football players have their brains sent to after they commit suicide. Some of the brains they have studied have been from non-suicide deaths. They find brains with severe atrophy to the point of looking like Swiss Cheese.
Second, Get a vasectomy so you do not father children who will never get to know their father.

I say this because you have a HUGE choice to make. Do you want to have a future or do you want to enjoy a few more seasons of play ? With your current condition, a responsible athletic trainer or team doctor will see your symptoms and nix any opportunity to play. If not, the next concussion will likely be properly assessed and your playing will be ended.

If you decide you want to move forward to try to live a full life by ending your concussion risk, there are plenty of people here who can help you understand how to help your brain heal and how to live with and work-around your current cognitive dysfunctions.

There are others here who can tell you about their short term ( a year or two) struggles with Post Concussion Syndrome. There are a few of us who can tell you about living a life with Post Concussion Syndrome. I have lived with PCS since my teens. I ended all contact sports when I was 16. I still have suffered 10 more concussions from just trying to live an active life and job. I did not take any risks.

My kids have lost out due to my personality struggles. My wife has lived with my struggles for 33 plus years. As she read your post from over my shoulder, she shuddered.

You still have a good life to look forward to. It will be your choice of how much you have to look forward to.

We are here for you.