Hi everyone. I made it to work today. On friday i left at noon. I just cannot get this hopelessness feeling out of me. I cannot remember when I had a 24 hour straight day of happiness. I've had a few hours at a time of happiness, but 1 day, I don't know if i even had that. And the financial weight... well, I'm just waiting for everything to crash.

I don't have any plan, nothing, just go through the motions. And now my dog is sick (and she hasn't been sick in well over a year and a half) and I cannot do anything to heal her except feed her chicken and rice.

Ugh.

T minus 12 days