Thank you Lyn and Sally!


Even though I am not in the best of condition now, I can still walk. and I am ever so grateful for that.

I may have severe difficulties while walking, but I am still on my feet.

I dream about working and driving. I feel that's a sign that one day I'll be able to do those things again.


I stay as positive as I can, sometimes I slip into the gray area... but usually pull myself out quickly.



I was reading about different seizures last night. Jacksonian in specific. I had to stop reading because the scrolling on the internet triggered something. Uncontrollable jerks so abrupt they were almost painful and my head and insides started feeling super not okay, so I had to stop. But what I am thinking by what I have read that these are seizures. Jacksonian and focal seizures seem to originate in the parietal lobe. Since I have damage to those areas I am thinking that's what's causing these jerking, poor motor, slurred speech and locked up muscles in my legs.

I cannot wait til I finally get a doctor so I can discuss these things.

I really don't want to have to take seizure meds but definitely can't afford more damage to those areas.

Today is the funeral for my cousin. It's going to be rough.

I hate that with MS, you can't even get a break to do the mourning process. Instead, I feel, it will just take advantage of me and get even crazieer.


Death is a horrible thing.

I should have been there for him when he was reaching out for a hand, I could have potentially prevented this.

my heart hurts more than my body.