dear TK

remember this is my experience
and it was necessary
as it gives definitive
answers
put a needle as an
epidural in my back
the table i was laying on
tilts
i was almost in standing
position at that point i am secured
by straps
dye is introduced radioactive
you are talked through it the
whole time
the table begins to tilt backward
you feel the dye go through your
body
as it began to reach the center of my chest
and the toward my throat is when i experienced
the pain something i never want to ever go
through again

in the end
not only my conditions confirmed
it picked up things i'd rather have not known
but gave the doctors
what they needed
after the procedure
a male doctor came into my room
and said
"Eva, i want you to know
there have been big burly men
who could not finish the test
anyhow
i don't want you to endure pain
who knows
maybe things are different
for you
source it on the internet
being on a site
that has been my life saving
a better understanding is always better
i am sorry
it is my story

praying yours is a breeze
and not anything like mine
you are to be in bed rest for 24 hours
and ice the back

i shall be thinking of you my dear

someone who cares