Ayna Dee

Something else to be careful with is the internet - it can be your best friend, but it can also be your worst enemy - and scare the heck out of you. I know that from reading the stuff I find on the net that I fit the criteria for a bazillion things.

'I was reading about different seizures last night. Jacksonian in specific. I had to stop reading because the scrolling on the internet triggered something.'

Not saying that you don't have these issues, but has it been dx'd by your doc? I know I am guilty of hitting Google every time something weird happens - usually because I can't get in to see a doctor.

On a very serious note, did your cousin take his own life? If so, there is nothing you could have done to prevent it. The guilt loved ones feel is all-consuming, but please remember, this was the only option they saw as viable at the time. If you were able to stop it this time, it was only a matter of time until it happened again. I am so sorry for your loss.

Suicide is a very selfish thing - and I say this only because the person suffering is unable to see past their pain and see the pain that they are inflicting on others.