He is very worried about me. He wants me in his office asap or in the ER or Urgent Care center asap. I said no to ER and AC because of the hefty bill associated with it and I know what they'll do. Give me an IV, something for pain, a dose of IVSM and then send me home. I really don't need another 3000.000 ER bill right now. Im uninsured right now.

So, now it sits, if there is a cancellation Im there if not, my appt boosted up to July 24 instead of Sept. I have gotten worse. Could be another relapse, Idk. I fell the other day, got one big nasty bruise on my foot.

I fell again just trying to get into bed. I am slipping. The nurse from my neuro's office called and wanted to talk to me so as we were talking she says "sweet heart I cant understand you, can you put your dh back on please"


I was mortified. I left my dh a voice message the other day, and he's telling me he cant understand me so when I listened to that message, I cried. I couldn't even understand myself. It really hit home how down hill Im going.

My older dd and dh are pushing dmds like street pushers and my middle dd is saying whatever your comfortable with mama and my son is indifferent to everything. Even my one aunt I finally broke down and called started yelling at me. I don't need that.

Is there a strong enough Calgon to take me away from all this? Cuz, man, I NEED A VACATION AFTER ALL THIS PAIN, AGONY AND DEFINATE DRAMA!!!