I had a buddy of mine do it to himself *edit*

*edit*I literally cried for days after I heard the news and it was because of thinking of just how someone could go through with it....so much despair and hopelessness that nothing else matters except getting rid of the mental pain.
I don't condemn anyone who commits suicide....they can't help it as much as we, with MS, can help it.

I keep thinking to myself how far and despaired one must go to actually go through with a suicide and I can't even grasp how far down you have to go...it makes me shocked. Even I, dealing with this crappy disease and it's crap it does to me, no GF or doing the job I loved doing(construction) and basically seeing a lot of what I worked for, go bye bye. Even I am not even close to even thinking about killing myself. I love my life despite this crap, I have good support, people smile at me instead of think of me as disgusting I ride my bike, I can still walk, I am SO glad to know more of the MS community and how close knit they are and most of all.....I have lots of hope and will not give up....I owe it to the friends and my family for this attitude, without them, I'd be down that dark road myself I suspect.

With Tim(my buddy) no one knew how far down he went and they couldn't be there for him....I always wished he would of gave in and reached out to someone, because sometimes a shoulder to lend, is all that it is needed to bring someone back out of the darkness. He just needed to reach out, but he didn't... RIP, my friend.