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Join Date: Dec 2012
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Join Date: Dec 2012
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Posts: 685
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~Thank's~
I appreciate the feedback greatly!I take my Valium before I go to sleep. I thought valium helps with anxiety,muscle spasms?I will be sleeping in the same room as my daughter for the next week on a trip. She is a teenager and I am going to ask her if she see's or hears me doing anything while asleep. Because most likely she will be up later than myself.
I am going to call tomorrow to get some M.D. appointments set up for when we return for this health concern.This morning when I woke up I noticed I do not just wake up by opening my eye's and stretching in a relaxed way! I jump up and no stretching etc.
I cannot tell my mother right now about the *new health concern because she will not let me and my daughter take this trip that we need SO VERY BAD!We need to work on coming together because I have been so messed up for the past years that I could not take care of her. My mother is already really worried about us going because of my health. She does not want us to go at all.
I am having this problem with this thought "why stay alive when I am suffering so much?" The only thing that is keeping me alive is my daughter and I am the only living parent for her. I am now every week getting new stuff thrown at me. Yesterday I got a letter from my car insurance and they are dropping me in September.
Why am I getting punished so bad for someone else's wrong?????I am emotionally shattered!I do not know how much longer I can deal with this Fing new pos life. HEEEELLLPPPP 
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What Happened: In 2011 I was in a MVA
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Symptoms: Physical: I am always cold in any season!!I cannot tolerate anything pressure on my head(sun glasses,hats)longer then a hour,Lock jaw/Displaced TMJ, Dropsey, Hands go numb, Arms go numb, back of head numb (when asleep),Muscle spasms in face & upper body,migraines, concentration headaches, dizziness, nausea, neck and back trauma (from accident), tinnitus, extreme light sensitivity, noise sensitivity, EXTREME fatigue, impaired vestibular system, balance off, Pupils NEVER equal, disrupted sleep cycles,speech problems.
Cognitive: Cognitive Behavior, Brain fog, impulsivity, speech problems, word finding problems, slowed processing speeds, impaired visual memory, impaired complex attention
Emotional: Unable to handle stress or overstimulation without getting extremely irritable or angry, easily overstimulated, MAJOR depression, major anxiety, Panic attacks
Treatment so far: Treatment for PCS,PTSD,Depression & panic,Vestibular therapy, Physical therapy, Vitamin Schedule,Walking,No Dairy, No eggs, No caffeine, No artificial coloring, Sleep with 2 pillows, Very little sugars consumed, Eat healthy,No alcohol, Medications, limit stress and overstimulation.
~*~Learn to treasure yourself and your Divinity. Be willing to accept yourself completely. Be yourself, be graceful, be kind, be wild, be weird ... be true to yourself~*~
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