LOL! Yes, you wouldn't want to have people think you have that!

Sorry for your (extra) bad day, Bram It just really, really, REALLY stinks, and there's no way around it. Keep fighting for the good things - it sounds like you have a wonderful family, especially your husband! My husband, after being great for so many years, has been going through an anger phase for the last few years, and it's been really difficult for the family and ramps up the stress, which makes everything worse. But poor guy - it's pretty understandable - he married someone with a serious chronic illness (I have CFS and fibro, then a brief RSD episode that spontaneously resolved); our middle son has a serious physical disabilities - no legs; our daughter with RSD; plus his dad with prostate cancer plus brother-in-law alcoholic plus plus plusplusplus ... then the only healthy person in our family (our oldest son) went across the country to college! We've tried counseling, but he doesn't want me to talk about the issues in front of a counselor - just wants to talk about the minor issues, so we can't get anywhere.

Anyway, didn't mean to get into my own rant, sorry ... rant away, because it really IS such a sad thing what we lose ... but there are still so many good and beautiful things left.

A few years ago when I had shoulder surgery, my husband's company took the top executives for a free trip to Hawaii. It took everything we had to get me there - loaded up with pain pills and pillows! And I ended up spending about 80% of my time on the bed in our bedroom, while everyone else (including my husband - I insisted that he went) was swimming and snorkeling and touring around. But I could hear the ocean, and I enjoyed that beautiful sound.

Yeah, those lovely, sunny days are hard ... I used to be so strong, and I'd just look at sick people and think that they needed to just suck it up ... well, at least I'm not arrogant and ignorant like that anymore!