Gladys-
Sounds to me like you have made a decision, but need 'permission/confirmation'. You know know your thoughts and feelings better than anyone else. Only you can know what is the right way to proceed - and that is what makes it the "right thing to do".
It doesn't really matter what any of us thinks you should do - we don't have your body, your history and your family to think about; you do. Trust your heart and your docs and the answer will be clear. I hope this in some small helps
{{{hugs}}}
No matter what - we are here for you and don't plan on going anywhere