I am relieved that you are currently getting help dealing with your overwhelming mental health issues, Kitty.

It must be incredibly frustrating that your team can't find the right med mix for you at this point. Hang on to the knowledge that there were meds that helped with your symptoms in the past. Hopefully they will be able to find the best treatment for you soon.

It sounds like you are in a catch 22 situation. Even potentially appropriate medications that could help with your brain chemistry might seem like they are not doing their job because of the situational depression and anxiety that anyone would struggle with in your dire financial/social situation. The financial help from SSI would give you more to work with to have a stable home life and decrease all of those external stressors. I hope that you can hang on until you are able to get benefits.