Yes, it's my story too. I can't go to church this morning as I was awake with neuropathy most of the night, and I can hardly walk this morning. And I too am missing my husband who died 4 l/2 years ago. My son and his family never come here. I have to go there if I want to see them. That may change. I am not sure my son and his family will come here at all. My neighbor had not seen me come out of the house in a couple of months and she was wondering if I was dead...when I did finally take a walk yesterday, past her house, when the sun was hiding behind rainclouds (blessed rain will help the fires here in New Mexico). But my neighbor never came over to see if I was dead. People have their lives.
Of course I am much older than you are, but when I was your age I was very sick and finally in the process of dx, even though I had had symptoms since age 17. Finally I had an MRI, finally a dx, as my symptoms, especially the ON, had become worse. I had some very bad attacks in my thirties and forties which were not diagnosed.
Praying for you and for some joy to enter your lives, and for blessings to all, Kitty and all who have written on this thread.