UPDATE:

Well, then.

Had my second ultra sound yesterday. Had a nice conversation with the u/s technician. She told me, that she didn't find anything unusual 2 weeks ago. She even, in front of my showed me everything she typed up today on her report.

She brought up both series and compared and contrasted for me, my right ovary from 2 weeks ago, to today. Today, there's nothing there.

You see, the little 'growth' she showed me, well, that shows up in some women every month, and it alternates sides. So next month, most likely, in two weeks, I will have something like that on my left ovary.

If you'd like artistic expression, think of it like that was the point of release for my egg to head off to my fallopian tube. Us, women, we sure do have something special going on inside of us, don't we?

By the time, my doctor came into the exam room, just for a discussion, this time. My ultra sounds were beautiful. And wow, there's nothing there now. So, I can just wait until next year, for another ultra sound with my annual exam. No mention of what my intentions were for having more kids.

I was offered to take the BRCA test. Wow, who knew, it's not a blood test? And it can be done, in office, to be sent off to a laboratory? Just make sure you've had nothing to eat or drink for at least 30 minutes to an hour prior. Considering I'd been in that office from 145pm and it was now 315pm, that really wasn't an issue.

You take a small travel sized bottle of Scope, two little cups, that you fill up with the mouthwash. And then there is this big sealed tube. Swish for at least 30 seconds and spit it into the tube, repeat and just make sure that you fill the vile to the #20. Which is precisely two of those little cups, provided you spit it out with precision, which for me, no problem.

Yes, it will tap into your deductible, but like anything, you can make monthly payment arrangements. Even if you had to pay the full amount, hey, the price of knowing your risk factor for developing breast or ovarian cancer, 3K, spaced out with good faith payments could give even those on tighter budgets peace of mind.

I cannot believe, all that I needed to consider, etc, over the past two weeks! I have certainly learned a lot!

I would have preferred, that two weeks ago, he didn't mention cancer, that he just said there's a growth, and it could be just the cyst or the techs photography skills and let's see. Hey, even look at date of last period and calculate, that I could have very well been ovulating. And, had today, there'd been something, then ask me, my intentions for more children.

Yes, it's good news, and a relief, in that regards! But for a woman who has an anxiety disorder and is prone to heart palpitations, can't wait to tell this one to my pdoc, who needed to prescribe me Xanax through a phone consult, when I see him next week.

After all, I was under the impression, especially after talking to him on the phone, 4 days after that first u/s, that I was going to be bracing myself for a preventative measure and educating myself on what hysterectomies are all about. I worried about the children that I have, and grieved for the one(s) I would never have the chance of having.

My ex and I were talking about that final aspect today. He went with the V because the thought tying my tubes, I had said, years ago with him, that I didn't want to live with that regret. SO, yeah, this was a lot for me to deal with emotionally as far as a hysterectomy.

I cannot express enough the appreciation I feel, over all of you 'being there' for me, through this.

And I am also relieved, to not have to worry about what this would do to my MS, right now!