Hi Jena:
Ha ha - it's not your cognitive skills that are out of whack - it's mine. I didn't explain very well.
I have two girls, ages 30 and 31. The oldest has four kids, the 30 year old had the five CL kids.
Her firstborn CL child was a girl (Tasha) who we adopted six years ago, making her child #3. That's her picture.
So at the ripe old age of 54 I have 8 grandchildren (and an adopted granddaughter). That's plenty.
As for struggling I can't help but think that the cognitive issues can be a blessing in disguise. I don't get emotional about things very much anymore. I just do what has to be done, it's like I am detached from it. Course all the meds probably make me a little wonky too. Tasha does make me feel and for that I am grateful. I love her more than life itself.
Course dealing with my PCP tends to rattle my cage a bit too.

Dealing with doctors who won't listen tend to make me a wee bit cranky...
Thank goodness for the MS clinic. They have given me back a QOL I never thought I would have again.