I had my accident Aug 2011. I have been under doctors care since for Occular therapy, Traumatic Brain Injury and all that goes with it, and psychiatric care as a result of the TBI.

I was doing really well, volunteering at a National Park and all of a sudden I started having a series of serious accidents. My body seems to move or act before my brain registers what is happening. I just stopped volunteering at the park due to my doctors suggestion. I am focused on getting into yoga instructor training. I think that is a more suitable environment for me.

All that aside, I have been stumbling, dizzy, more forgetful, vertigo has kicked back in, light sensitivity, and what I call hatchet head where it feel like a hatched has been chopped into my head to just to the left. It is like my TBI was dormant and somehow or for some reason it is making its presence known with a vengeance.

I have always been athletic, and a healthful eater by now I am eliminating even more process foods and chemicals I eat use on my body (sweeteners shampoos, lotions, etc...) I havent felt better.

I go to sleep at 7 pm and wake up at 0230-3, that is my natural rhythm I guess.

I am sad at the thought still that this is the new normal and that I have to accept it. I need to have purpose, my doc said "there is purpose in doing nothing." I have to keep my self in a space where I can really listen to what I need to do for myself that day. I have to make lists of tasks and where before I could bang thru the whole list of tasks, I now have to accept that accomplishing one or part of one is ok. Most days it takes all I have to do the things to take care of me and my injury leaving nothing left for anything else. It is so easy for me to forget that.

I am glad I know what it means to live w TBI but sometimes I forget that it always lays dormant in me even on my best days.