Mark, while I don't have the background like you do, its just my husband and myself. I do understand how you feel. You sit there and try to figure yourself out in to a downward spiral, that you can't you find your way out of. Especially when you have "done something wrong". You can't figure out why everyone stays around you after all you are this lowly worm not worthy of them. I feel this quite a bit since I am home alone while my husband works. I feel totally useless.
Now I just got my dx in October and surprisingly my husband totally understands and doesn't push. He knows that he can't help but makes sure I don't sink too low. Meds here, meds there......none can help totally, yet how do some get by with working and I am stuck at home?
Does any of this sound familiar???
While I don't mean to be a downer for you I just wanted to let you know that you aren't alone in feeling this way right now. And I am sure all of use feel the same way one time or another as well.
Please keep posting. We do care.