Thanks, finz. I am a nervous wreck. I do wish I could explain to the judge that the seizures do not ask my age, education or work history before they attack me about every other day. But I know that would hurt me and come off as a smart butt. As it stands now, the amount of meds I have to take and the large doses, I sometimes, and pardon this grossness, have to literally swallow them right back down after they come back up as to not waste them. My body does not want to take them anymore, but I have to. It's just so much. Then, I have to lay at an angle as to not move to let them quietly do their work, which, clearly, they are not. I am so stinking stressed. This whole disorder has ruined my enritr quality of life. Because of it, I will no longer be able to have children, I have suffered and severed family relationships, and cannot keep relationships because of the miscommunications associated with all of these problems. IT SUCKS and it sucks bad. I have a good lawyer, and he got a friend of mine ssd based on narcolepsy alone. I have faith in him that with all of my disorders and no end in sight, that he can do the same for me, but I still can not help be be so scared at the end result of being denied again while my first one sits and waits in a federal court. When I got the first denial letter for this claim, it was based on the fact that ss said that they said i can not work at this time because of it, but that they did not expect it to last a year. well, here it is, over a year later, and it has simply gotten worse, with my physician indicating that the seizures are now cxausing permanant brain damage. my speech has changed, when people talk to me, often it gets lost in my brain and i hear it in a totally different language. so, i just simply nod and agree. i figure that i have a 50/50 shot of getting it right. as for what work i used to do, i was an on air radio personality, and with having slurred speech all the time now, that is a no go. definate no go. that is why the radio station had to let me go. they thought i was doing drugs, but that was before we knew that i was having seizures that affected me that bad. the worst seizure i had, the life changing one, left me walking arpund for 3 days, convinced that the world had ended, that jesus had talked to me, and that we were all in the afterlife and dead. i was trying to convice other people of it as well. that isd how bad these things are.