markneill,

You need to seriously consider reinventing your entire life. This should start with a move off Staten Island. Small town stresses will do wonders for you. If you friends and family are not helping you lower stress and anxiety levels, there is no reason to stay local to them.

Life is a lot more than a high profile/income job and lifestyle. In fact, that statement should be "Life" is a lot "less" than a high profile/income job and lifestyle. If the doctors' medicating you hadn't contributed to your struggles, in time, the lifestyle likely would have.

We need to learn how to live a life of Less is More. You will be surprised at the joy that can be found in living a Less lifestyle.

But then I have a worldview based on my Christian faith and 40 plus years of experience living with Post Concussion Syndrome. I can't expect others to fully understand. I hope you will at least try.

btw, I finished this past week hanging by a frayed thread. But my life will go on.
My credit rating is trashed, too. But life is not built around a credit rating. Only the bankers and big business want you to think that so you can owe your soul to them.

My best to you all.