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04-06-2015, 06:59 PM | #1 | |||
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Dear Eva,
You go through such a lot every day and you find the Strength to share with us, your Friends. So, from me to you - for the first time to anyone: In the '80s I drank and smoked (illegally here) to 'cope' with pain and severe Anxiety issues. This was on top of popping beta-blockers like Smarties. This was daily, but I was never an alcoholic, it NEVER affected me my tolerance was so high, but I had no cravings or withdrawals. I just got mentally relaxed with the mixture. Staying up til 2am, I was fully straight by 7am the same morning. As the years passed heavier abuse led to nil reaction, work wasn't affected - I was even able to 'function' within small groups in the evenings as my Anxiety was drowned and smoked out. I realised that I was consuming 2-3 times as much as before with no real effect after 7 years or so. I decided on a change, quit my job, sold my house, broke off a relationship and moved 250 miles, cutting all ties with my previous life. I haven't touched a drop, nor smoked, since. In 27 years I have only spoken to 2 people on 3 occasions from my 'past' life. Dave.
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04-06-2015, 08:25 PM | #2 | |||
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thank you for sharing i with everything going on and to now be a S.S. recipient and to have found the best coverage a new drug company i want to express how having to go through my own physical breakdown ruptured disc that was the beginning of one horrific situation after another making the conscious decision not to take my antidepressant and am very angry of having to take pain meds my cardiologist put me on xanax been on it during my changes ya know woman stuff now my shrink dispenses it one time i was on 1 mg tab 3 times a day brought myself down slowly to 1 tablet he said not to be uncomfortable and after a while i could see i needed two in my day so bottom line i have to tell you as recovering alcoholic my choice a drink it kills the pain at a low cost as i just learned having to find a drug plan part D my one pain med Oxycontin one month supply is $997.00 not to mention the other meds then the cancer another 5 years of those are you getting the picture there are so many things a slave to them depressing so blanking depressing to have worked so long in my staying away from that first drink never to have abused my meds to date doesn't sit okay with me i hope i have been able to have opened dialog as it too is my medicine for life i am a angry depressed person for many reasons and i know if i do not work on it my character defects are at their best it has been a while since my last drink and i would be gone if i ever thaught i can abuse my meds i take medicine not drugs me
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04-07-2015, 07:28 AM | #3 | |||
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Dear Eva,
Your strength should be held up to marvel at. I, also, take medicine not drugs. I am scared of being addicted, the amount I have to take to function. I worry that my Depressive Personality Disorder and Addictive Personality go hand in hand. That is one of the reasons why, every February, I stop my pain meds one at a time for as long as I can bear, physically. It was just a few days this year, but I break the cycle. I meant to put in my first Post - to give you a general idea of the state I was in with no physical effects - daily consumption was around 5 pints of beer and 10 double whiskys, weekends pushed up to 8 pints and 16 doubles. This was at my worst, before I quit. I now abhor the thought of drink, the smell makes me nauseated - thankfully. We are so lucky here to have the NHS. We all pay in a percentage of salary, we pay a set fee (minimal) for each rx med for a week/fortnight/month supply, or if you are a cancer sufferer left with medical issues that need treatment you get them for free. Before this I used to pay for a Yearly Certificate - less than $160 total for 10 meds monthly for a year. I will hear nothing against our system. Keep fighting the Big C, I am about 20 months clear so you can do it. We will battle our Depression together and the other issues and pains can all be Consigned to H…! Dave.
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04-07-2015, 11:04 AM | #4 | |||
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thank you for sharing today i will try not to do much as i have over done things such as putting a table set for my granddaughter it is made of solid wood and needed to be put together the most colorful table and two chairs ladybugs butterflies i will get a picture of it and have my daughter Corissa post it since it took all night to do it was tough the next morning she is so happy and grateful sits at it first thing in the morning and says where is breakfast she is so happy worth the money it is so well made it will be passed on down her family the company name is TEAMSOM THE THEME A COLORFUL GARDEN i will try and stay in a positive mood (that usually changes if my child gets in that couch mood) she is to young to beautiful to not be productive she is also 17 today i will LET GO AND LET GOD JUST FOR TODAY I WILL TAKE CARE OF ME i will hold your hand Dave and pray Lord grant us the serenity to accept the things we cannot change the courage to change the things we can and to understand the difference in Jesus name Amen to thy self be true me
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04-07-2015, 03:00 PM | #5 | |||
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Eva,
It is 8:55 pm here. In 5 minutes is my Special Time. Tonight I will hold your hand and specifically Meditate on your beautiful prayer for US as well as for our fellows. Thank you. Dave.
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04-07-2015, 07:50 PM | #6 | |||
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8 hours difference where my family is as a Hungarian and ALL of my family resides in Europe do not know what it was like to have grandparents aunts and uncles on both sides went to visit twice i was a young girl 9 and then again 12 whatever time of the day love and peace one day at a time me
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