Dear Eva,
Your strength should be held up to marvel at. I, also, take medicine not drugs. I am scared of being addicted, the amount I have to take to function. I worry that my Depressive Personality Disorder and Addictive Personality go hand in hand. That is one of the reasons why, every February, I stop my pain meds one at a time for as long as I can bear, physically. It was just a few days this year, but I break the cycle.

I meant to put in my first Post - to give you a general idea of the state I was in with no physical effects - daily consumption was around 5 pints of beer and 10 double whiskys, weekends pushed up to 8 pints and 16 doubles. This was at my worst, before I quit. I now abhor the thought of drink, the smell makes me nauseated - thankfully.

We are so lucky here to have the NHS. We all pay in a percentage of salary, we pay a set fee (minimal) for each rx med for a week/fortnight/month supply, or if you are a cancer sufferer left with medical issues that need treatment you get them for free. Before this I used to pay for a Yearly Certificate - less than $160 total for 10 meds monthly for a year. I will hear nothing against our system.

Keep fighting the Big C, I am about 20 months clear so you can do it. We will battle our Depression together and the other issues and pains can all be Consigned to H…!

Dave.

good morning Dave

thank you for sharing

today i will try not to do much
as i have over done things
such as putting a table set for my granddaughter
it is made of solid wood and needed to be put together
the most colorful table and two chairs ladybugs
butterflies i will get a picture of it and have my daughter
Corissa post it
since it took all night to do
it was tough the next morning
she is so happy and grateful
sits at it first thing in the morning
and says
where is breakfast
she is so happy
worth the money
it is so well made
it will be passed on down her family
the company name is TEAMSOM
THE THEME A COLORFUL GARDEN
i will try and stay in a positive mood (that usually changes if
my child gets in that couch mood) she is to young to beautiful to not be productive
she is also 17
today i will
LET GO AND LET GOD
JUST FOR TODAY
I WILL TAKE CARE OF ME
i will hold your hand Dave
and pray

Lord
grant us the serenity
to accept the things we cannot change
the courage to change the things we can
and to understand the difference
in Jesus name
Amen

to thy self be true
me

Eva,
It is 8:55 pm here. In 5 minutes is my Special Time. Tonight I will hold your hand and specifically Meditate on your beautiful prayer for US as well as for our fellows.

Thank you.

Dave.

forgetting you are so far away and time zone changes
8 hours difference where my family is
as a Hungarian and ALL of my family resides in Europe
do not know what it was like to have grandparents
aunts and uncles on both sides
went to visit twice
i was a young girl 9 and then again 12
whatever time of the day
love and peace
one day at a time
me

again my daughter
acting up
to much drama
to much to deal with
it has got to stop
me

To let go and let God
Me

There is a very important grant I have been given
My obsession to not pick up a drink
As easy as that may sound
IT WAS ONE OF THE MOST DIFFICULT THING I HAD TO DO
But I did it
By the Grace of God I have that obsession lifted
Was it the fellowship
Was it God
Was it me
It is all of the above
I was beaten down by a bottle
And today I am beaten down by my illness
My Meds my new character defects
I must do things one thing at a time
I must do what I must and let go and let God
I must be released of my own bondage
I must trust my GOD 100% and not take my will back
I must be responsible of persons who depend on me

Father I ask you to please allow serenity in my life
Allow your love to be felt in my being
Father allow me to break from this bondage
Grant me a mirical as I pray and still have faith in your
power to heal the sick
Allow my children to see I can make it
And be happy just turning it over to God
To rid of evil in my life
And to live life
Amen