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04-07-2015, 03:00 PM | #1 | |||
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Eva,
It is 8:55 pm here. In 5 minutes is my Special Time. Tonight I will hold your hand and specifically Meditate on your beautiful prayer for US as well as for our fellows. Thank you. Dave.
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You and I are yesterday's answers, The earth of the past come to flesh, Eroded by Time's rivers To the shapes we now possess. The Sage - Emerson, Lake & Palmer. |
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04-07-2015, 07:50 PM | #2 | |||
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Grand Magnate
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8 hours difference where my family is as a Hungarian and ALL of my family resides in Europe do not know what it was like to have grandparents aunts and uncles on both sides went to visit twice i was a young girl 9 and then again 12 whatever time of the day love and peace one day at a time me
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04-29-2015, 07:08 AM | #5 | |||
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Grand Magnate
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There is a very important grant I have been given
My obsession to not pick up a drink As easy as that may sound IT WAS ONE OF THE MOST DIFFICULT THING I HAD TO DO But I did it By the Grace of God I have that obsession lifted Was it the fellowship Was it God Was it me It is all of the above I was beaten down by a bottle And today I am beaten down by my illness My Meds my new character defects I must do things one thing at a time I must do what I must and let go and let God I must be released of my own bondage I must trust my GOD 100% and not take my will back I must be responsible of persons who depend on me Father I ask you to please allow serenity in my life Allow your love to be felt in my being Father allow me to break from this bondage Grant me a mirical as I pray and still have faith in your power to heal the sick Allow my children to see I can make it And be happy just turning it over to God To rid of evil in my life And to live life Amen
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05-01-2015, 10:32 AM | #6 | |||
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Grand Magnate
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My pain level is through the roof
My night a nightmare My Meds to be taken at allotted times Never a high I know how far my Meds will go to cover my pains It is the feet knees hip mostly right side My knees out of control pain And then there is my addiction Already a physian induced addict Make no mistake Meds that people who turn to heroin or alcohol because they cannot see a doctor My one medication OxyContin over ONE THOUSAND DOLLARS $1,009.00 to be exact That is only one of the five medicines I take Alcohol is and would be my ultimate choice of DRUG Why couldn't there be a pill of all pills in this world Now you hear my disease talking A pill like my three vodka martini's Those who do drink Understand The first drink You start to unwind All those tight muscles begin to relax The second one hits you in a different way You start to feel numb From your head to your toes Jeez Louise my feet and legs something I'm known to be complimented for comes from my dad Anyhow In my case a good conversation with drink number two Then that third martini You begin to feel that warm fuzzy feeling I can still remember In the end Would take a swig right from the bottle When I recognized my privilege to drinking alcohol was ended I could not believe it I COULD NOT STOP AT THREE For the longest time I never got "It's the first drink I must stay away from Why not in a pill What a sick way of thinking As if I would stop at one pill Can you hear my disease I am one of those people who respect My Meds All of them And it doesn't make it easier As I know how it would feel to pick up a drink Just to get rid of this throbbing To continue... Pain Last night was difficult My knees kept me up 8:30 this morning took my Meds There was relief It is still painful As my pain in other parts of my body also cry out in pain My child asked to return back into our home The babies mother Not to enable But to understand respect me and the home you asked to return to My heart is wrenching When I speak with her New to understanding taking someone else's inventory such as mine is not the way to go especially if we will be under one roof Now there are three generations under my roof I love my family too hard there is such a thing I will do most anything they ask if in my power I have much going on always Am careful what I ask for Both my girls will be at meetings tonight I too would loooooove to make my home group meeting It's a Sunday 9:00 morning meeting Maybe to tomorrow Lets see if they think about me I might bring my granddaughter with me To thy self be true A M E N Me
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someone who cares eva Last edited by eva5667faliure; 05-01-2015 at 03:06 PM. Reason: Wasn't finished |
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05-01-2015, 02:54 PM | #7 | ||
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Magnate
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Eva, "Well Done my friend" "Thank you", Gerry |
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"Thanks for this!" says: | eva5667faliure (05-01-2015), RSD ME (03-26-2016) |
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