((((Dorrie))))

Glad to hear you had a good time Glad to see you back

My week was well on the homefront. Just getting lots of enjoyment out of my kids, my dh, my neighborhood and myself...been spending lots of time reading and reflecting. Also got my hair highlighted for the first time in years, and found my new hairdresser

I love getting my hair done!! I was a hairdresser some 26 years ago!! I usually do my own but once in a long while I get it done by a stylist.
Always makes me feel fresh!
When I used to party and drink I used to have the hair to go with the lifestyle that I lead. Long blonde and a wild perm!!!!! I used to stick out like a sore thumb! Now I prefer to be alot more tame..however if I am going out I give it the ol flip to get some puff then spray it!!
I think I have been almost every colour going. My hair is naturally dark blondish, almost light brown...only a couple whits hairs in the side...not bad for 42!! I have been black, brown, red, platnium, purple, and pink and blue at the same time!!!!! I once sported a mohawk in pink and blue to attract attention to our hairdressing school!!!!!!! Amazingly enough I still have a good head of hair...fine but lots of it!!

My whole life I've been a little consevative with my hair. The most I've done is some spiral perms and some highlights. I've often wondered how a reddish color would look on me, but each time I get highlights I'm swayed back to preferring the blonde.

Today was a nice day. My oldest has been playing with the neighbor kids this summer. They are having a positive influence on him. I like to call it positive peer pressure. He's 5, she's 9? He's 11?

Today was just a nice day. Not perfect but serene.

I'd realized this week....I'd started drinking 20 years ago. My 'depression' {off/on} started 20 years ago. Hmmm... Weird lil coikidink.... I'm optimistic for my future....

I cannot believe you are a grandmother at 42!! Do you realize you are younger than my DH?

Toodles for now...I'm off to watch the HR Derby....up to 17...

How was your day??

ARGHHH!!! It's HOT!!! I'm tired, I've got MS---so sometimes the heat gives me headaches and dizziness and nauseau!

I'm aggravated because though the alcohol is removed, the little underlying issues still exist in the marriage! Arguing over bills, housework, kids/parenting styles---you know the works!

I'm tempted to FINALLY attend my first al-anon meeting tomorrow. I feel everytime I think I want to go, somehow I allow myself to be lulled by being talked out of it. Convincing myself that things have changed.

Well they have changed, but still stayed the same...I hope that makes sense.

I need to know how to set up the boundary with dh---get into therapy or AA or something like that. I applaud him for not drinking. I applaud him for trying with his own anger issues...but desire alone cannot help one overcome....

I'm a reader. I read and read and practice techniques, etc that I've learned along the way. I'll start therapy soon and as of this evening, after a couple days of walking on eggshells---I'm ready for the in-person support!

I vow to get my lil ones off to bed on time or earlier tomorrow so that I can make it to the meeting on time!!! Before my blood boils anymore and I say something mean and nasty...and before my stress levels boil!!!

God Grant me the serenity!!! Please Grace me with peace....

Hi Gladys!! Sorry I have been absent...hubby left the laptop at work for a few days!! I think he misses me
I really hope that you get to that meeting!! It is hard to motivate ourselves onto going but it is soooo worth it! I am sure that you will feel good about going! They can help so much but you have to go to get that help!!
Please go Gladys!! In the meantime you are in my prayers...may God wrap you in his warm blanket of love!!Hugs to you and your family!!

Quick check in....I will pop in again later!!

Hey! Only 11 days untill my 8 year birthday!!! July the 30 is my AA birthday!!!!! Wow how time flies!!!

Ooohh, Dorrie! We'll have to celebrate on your 8 years!!

Well, the other night I had the motivation...just the kids weren't cooperating, lol. Their bedtime is between 7 and 730 with the oldest at 8. 18month olds and 2 year olds...well...lol...it's tough to plan to make it out of the house a little after 7 on that note. I planned for it, but it fell through. I shall try once again this week to see if I can.

Since I posted my vent and frustration, dh and I had a bit of a chat. Also, the money frustration that I have being a stayathome may be coming to an end this fall/winter. I may end up babysitting I miss earning my own $$. I don't like to be dependent on others, if I can help it. This will be good for me. I'm planning to get back to the workforce once the littlest one is 5.

How's the summer heat treating you?

Hi Gladys!! Ever since Saffire came to live with us I have not been working at all. My pay was not good at all....Hubby has a great job as a Senior Technologist for an international Standards company. I miss work sometimes but I love being here with Saffire!
Summer heat has been OK here. Lots of rain lately!!
Hugs for you Gladys!

(((Dorrie)))

Being home with your little Saffire is pay in and of itself

I may be sitting a little girl That will just tickle me pink....as I'm the only female in a home full of guys! I know we won't be having anymore children, so this will give me a taste for what it's like to raise little girls.

We've been having nightly t-storms over here. Last night's were petty neat---those 'silent' t-storms

Hope you have a great Monday! My dh starts vacation on Saturday...woohoo...staying close to home, but it's still 2 weeks with him home