I haven't had a drink in 2 or 3 days. Now today...i am supposed to be at an alcohol counseling appointment...and what have i done? well, don't suppose it matters why but i had a few drinks before breakfast time even came so...i blew off the appointment. they do talk to folks even under the influence but i just feel such a loser atm.

Just brush yourself off and start again today You are far from a 'loser'...besides, I'm not a fan of labels....you are nothing more than a Fallible Human Being...FHB!!!!

It takes time....were you feeling overly anxious about seeing the counselor? Sometimes we reach for the bottle to overcome our anxieties...natural response. You'll get through this!

And with that post went post #420

Yes I was...it was to be my first appointment. I'm not good meeting new people like doctors, counsellors etc. Plus it's 2 bus rides away and I'm agoraphobic.

Thank You for your kind words and reminding me I'm only human, I tend to be too hard on myself.



~and with this goes post 101...way behind Gladys hmmmm...lol~

My LOve ,,, You have made a big step !!!

From what I know of not that far back >>...... You have come so so ,,, soooooooooooooooooooooo FAR !!

WMD. {~Corky~} xoxox.

((((((corky)))))) you know me better than anybody here...and...ty for reminding me how far i have come.

roz

agoraphobia is a pain? huh? I have a friend who was...she now has her licence for the first time(in her 30's) and is out and about in the world.

Lots of these counselors out there, well, some have been there, done that. I wouldn't fear too much about what they may or may not think of you It's a 'calling' of sorts to do the jobs that they do

Hope today is a better day for you!

You are not a loser. I remember when I first HAD TO QUIT DRINKING because of being in too much trouble with the courts. It is the hardest thing I have ever had to do in my life. Now I have lost my boyfriend to suicide and want to drink really bad but haven't yet anyway. I was forced to take something called antibuse. I was on it for 3 years and it worked. Now all I have to do is stay sober. Keep your head up and take care of you. Everything will be ok. When it's the right time for you you will know it.

I have been in treatment for depression for 39 years....but now the worst thing has happened. I am craving inhalants...everything. Started about 3 months ago..thought it was harmless....sniffed furniture refinisher about 8 times a day but not for long...then paint...gasoline....kerosene...even bug spray...hair spray..nail polish...nail polish remover...car starter (ether), room deodorizer (Glade), Lysol, any aerosol, cooking spray, hair mousse, deodorant, diesel fuel, shoe polish, typewriter correction fluid, any solvent...., etc. I stopped for a week or so, and relapsed. I had been off it for one month this last time, but blew it this weekend, when I accidentally put my hand on a can of paint my husband had hidden. I literally covered my whole face, and nose with paint...even eyelashes. It was horrible, and I did it twice. The craving is unbearable. When I saw myself in the mirror, I nearly died. I AM NOT GOING TO GO THIS ROUTE! PLEASE HELP ME!! I FEEL CALM NOW and am not craving....God help me.....

Hi jane, hope you are doing well. Always before thinking about drinking(or taking any drug of choice), use the "HALTS" method. Ask yourself if you are :Hungry,Angry, Lonely,Tired,or Scared. If "yes" to any, then deal w/that specific issue. Journaling helps a lot too. Just writing things down on paper allows us to organize our thoughts and feelings. Also, don't beat yourself up so much. Ask yourself how you would respond to a dear friend in the same situation, and treat yourself just as good as you would treat someone you love! Good luck to you. Blessings!