Good news today... my wait wont be as long as we first exected. I have been booked for 19 June. I am well nervous n scared, but I have a billion things to do leading up to the op now like buy new slippers n toothbrush lol.
As the day draws near Ill keep u all posted. Once I am able to get back here after the op Ill let u all know how it went. Thank god we finally have a date... my biggest bug bare in life is waiting. Now of course i decided to knit my youngest a jumper so Im now knitting as fast as I can so it will be ready before I go in.
Thank u all so much for allowing me to shed tears, be angry and hopefully made u all smile on the good days.
Look forward to chatting when Im clipped.
All my love n big hugs
Cass xoxo

I won't forget you and the surgery you face. I am very glad to hear your wait is about over. All my best wishes and prayers go with you. None of this stuff is easy to deal with. You have done the very best you can in a lousy situation. Take care of yourself, have faith all will be well. ginnie

My word, its absolutely disgraceful the way you've been treated, btw, hope you are ok and it went well, new to this forum and read this story from start to finish...I think, after 8 years since my rupture and coiling, that no-one really understands what its like to have this time bomb in your head that you can feel but no-one else can. I don;t know what's worse, knowing you have one (or a few) unruptured or not knowing you have one and it suddenly rupturing. Even after treatment and no matter how many times an expert tells you its fixed and the chances of it happening again are nil to zero...you try believing that when you get that pain in your head or a dizzy spell, even years later...its unnerving and always there to remind you. I believe having gone through something like this that it is a real test of character and strength to get through the fear and depression and other physical issues related to post aneurysm surgery and trying to get on with your life the best you can with limitations plus the constant fear there is something in your head that could put your life in danger. Even though I am pretty much over it, I know I am not and never will be 100% the person I was before this happened and some days I still get angry this happened to me but most of the time I'm fine. Little things that other people may take for granted you cant do, tiring easily and annoying nerve pain in the head can get you down, but thats my point...test of character whether you let it get you down or not, or just accept it, feel glad you survived it and are alive to tell the tale and just get on with life the best you can.......good luck Cass and anyone else going through this x

Cass, I had a family friend who lived with aneurysms for 18 years, and he at the old age of 78 died from a heart attack, not the aneurysms. He had to be careful about stress and medications , but he did lead a fairly normal life, had a wife for 48 years, had kids and grandkids and seemed to be happy with his life. And your so lucky to be in Australia, if you were in the USA ,your health care would be so expensive you couldn't afford anything else, and your treatments would be limited by what the high priced insurance would allow. Australia's health care is great and some of the best in the world. I know as my ex wife is from Australia and her father had a long bout with cancer. Your system did more for him than anyone I knew in the US who had cancer ever had. Your in good hands thats for sure.. and you wont lose everything you worked for in the process either.

Hi all,
After losing my puppy, I feel heavily into the depression pit and found it hard to bring myself out. My partner decided to take me away for 8 glorious days on the beach in Far North Queensland. I spent last weekend booking a hotel and flights and spent the week organising our bags n food for the kids while we're away.
I did a last shop Thursday morning n was eagerly awaiting Friday to catch our flight out.
A quick insight into my "6th" sense. Many a time in my life I have woken from a sleep to the horrible feeling of dreed and doom and I cant shake it. With that feeling something will happen within 24 hrs. My partner always laughs it off and tells me to just "chill out". On Wednesday I woke with that feeling. I thought immediately about our holiday but decided this time not to say anything and put it down to being overly excited.
After my last shopping trip on Thursday I sat down and felt rather dizzy from all the rushing about. Our phone rang but I chose to ignore it. It went to voicemail. I heard a womans voice asking me to ring her urgently so I jumped up and picked up the phone. It was my wait list lady. I said to her "u better not be asking me in next week"... she paused and said I have good news for u, ur op is booked for Tuesday. I burst into tears as I was soooo looking forward to my holiday. My partner proceeded to cancel everything.
I now sit in wait for Tuesday, my bag is packed and my lappy loaded with movies as Im booked in a day before my op. I cant say Im eager to have this op, Im ***** scared and beyond nervous. I have talked with my youngest girl as I have decided I dont want her coming to hospital n seeing me all messy. She has been taught to cook several basic meals and will be keeping my side of the bed warm for my return. Mt eldest is moving back home on Sunday and my partner starts work ( a job he has been hoping for) on Monday. So its going to be a hectic few days but we are ready to go.
I look forward now to coming back here and letting u all know how textbook it was and that we are ready to start the whole process over again for the left side clipping.
Thank you everyone for the wonderful support, I really couldnt have gotten through this wait without it.
Heres hoping the chocolates will be overflowing and the pain is minimal.
See you all on the flipside!!!!

I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Everything will turn out OK. I know that nervous feeling too. Soon it will be over and you will be home being pampered with chocolates! I am also sorry to hear about your pet. They are family, and you had every right to grieve. Be at peace Cass, we will all be waiting to hear how you did. ginnie

Hi Ginnie,
Yes my puppy was 14 years young and my very best friend, we had gone thru so much together and no matter how hard it got he always snuggled with me n gave me thatwonderful love only a puppy could give.
I spent he last night of his life caring for him and no matter how much pain he was in all he wanted was to lay on my lap n snuggle. I spent 24hrs awake with the end result being that he had a stroke n couldnt be saved. It broke my heart as here i sit waiting for my brain to be fixed and I couldnt do anything about his.
I brought him home and buried him under the camilia trees and I sit and talk to him when I feel sad. He was my boy, protecter of my girls and the silliest puppy who "talked". The house is quiet, our other puppy is missing him n she has very little to say. My boy would dance n sing for his food, bark n bounce when we came home and complained when the fire wasnt on. When my partner cuddled me he would jump off the lounge and tell him to leave me alone, I was his girl n he wasnt sharing lol.
He is terribly missed but the memories are there along with a video or 2 which I watch when Im down. Heres to all the puppies of the world that fill our homes with that special love n care that us humans have yet to master.

Anyone who has loved a pet like that, knows that grief. It is awful. I lost my Cat, who thought he was a dog. he was 21 years old, I had him longer than my own kids. Constant companion who traveled with me. Plane, boat, bus, train, motor cycle, Yep a motion loving animal. I think if I had jumped from a plane he would have gone with me. He sat on my art display as part of it for years, allowed in the showrooms. Memories of these family members do not fade, but become dearer as time moves on. It has been two years now, and I have another, who has greatly helped me with the grief. No one ever takes their place, and I do consider these pets as a gift. They have indeed mastered love, which humans have not figured out yet. Well some of us have!
I will be thinking of you cass, and your friend. He will be there with you during surgery as a special angel. We will be here for you too. I know it is hard to face your surgery, in spirit you are NOT alone. ginnie

I would like to know some of the places you find information. I apologize I'm still trying to figure this out?

Yay Im home.. had my op, feel crap, feel good, feel different. Stutter has gone, annie grew another 2mm in 4 months. Back to Dr's in 6 weeks for check up n plan for next annie op.

I dont want to go thru this op again but I guess if I have to then i will. I just want to be me again, normal, no pain, no strange, just me.