I need some answers so I joined this forum. OCD is devistating when you try to love somone. Pull to them and love you (while drunk and nice) push you away in a couple of days (very angry and hostile) It has almost killed me. I am now on no contact after 2 years of tyhis push and pull. He is very sick with anxiety, alcohol to self medicate and hooked on ativan and diabetic. He says he is fighting for his life and I cause his so much pain and anxiety. I have done everything but love him in every way I can. I know he needs help but is trying to do this al on his own.His alcohol withdrawal is so severe, his nerves are fried, his blood sugar is so high and his ativan is up to 10 mg per day. I fear fro his life but he says if I come see him he will call the police. He cares about me and talked about getting married but he wont let me help him. I am so confused. Maybe I was just another one of his compulsions as we have a major attraction for each other and have fun when he is drinking. He is so mean when he is not drinking. You wouldnt believe the things he says to me out of so much anger. I have gotten sick trying to understand. I had never known of theseissues in my life and wish I had never seen the ugly side of all this because I am such a caring and sensitive woman. I am trying to understand what to do. It seems I have to let him alone for now but my heart is broken and I am afraid for him. I also dont like feeling I was just a compulsion of OCD when I thought it was really love. Can anyone relate to this? Please share with me...